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Day 14/365: Sock

1.14

I often tell my patients, “If you’re having an emergency, let custody know, and they’ll notify me.”  Once in a while, someone gets bad news or is feeling suicidal, and it’s important that they know they can ask for help and get it.

So today I was in between appointments, and one of the inmate clerks came by my office to tell me that a patient was requesting to see me.  The patient didn’t have an appointment for today.  His tier officer had written him a special pass to Psych Services.  I knew this particular inmate-patient; he’d come by my office for unscheduled appointments before, when he’d had some small crises.  I told the clerk to bring him in.

Mr. D arrived at my door, carrying a manila folder and a business-sized envelope.  He sat down and handed me the envelope.  “Here,” he said.  “I brought this to show you.”

The return address was an attorney’s office.  I pulled out a sheet of paper and quickly scanned the letterhead.  Oh crap, I thought.  Did this guy just get bad news?  Is this letter going to tell me that the court denied his appeal?  Am I about to deal with a shitstorm?  I braced myself and tried not to let my brain get too far ahead with planning the next intervention.

I read the letter.  In a nutshell, the attorney had checked a number of sources and was unable to find past legal documents that would have provided some important information that might be helpful to the inmate’s current appeal.

I handed the letter back to Mr. D.  “I don’t understand.  So what’s the emergency?”

“I have the documents that he needs right here.”  Mr. D held up the manila folder.  “I wanted to see if you would fax them over to his office for me.”


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Day 13/365: Toe-Up Hand-Dyed Merino Wool Sock

1.13

Since I work four ten-hour days, every Tuesday is my Monday morning.  I’d just turned on the computer when my colleague Dr. L walked into my office.  He said, “Dr. V, you didn’t tell me on Friday that I forgot to turn my keys in.”

“What are you talking about?”  I tried to remember Friday, but it seemed like such a long time ago.

“You and I walked out together after work, remember?  And I forgot to turn my keys in.  I got home and you know by the end of the week, I’m just wiped out.  I went to bed at 8:00.  I guess I just fell into a deep sleep.  Anyway, my cell phone started buzzing around 10:00, 10:30, but I was in such a deep sleep, I didn’t pick up right away.  By the time I was able to answer the phone, whoever was calling hung up.  And then my home phone started ringing.  But like I told you, I was so tired.  I thought I’d just let the machine pick up.  But whoever was calling didn’t leave a message; they hung up.  They must have called like five times, but they didn’t leave a message.  And then, around 12:30 that night, someone was knocking at my door.  They came to my house.”

“Who came to your house?”

“Two officers.”

“Holy shit,” I said.  “I guess they really needed to have those keys.”


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Day 12/365: Toe-Up Hand-Dyed Merino Wool Sock

1.12

I gained a lot of weight when I went back to grad school in 2003.  I went to classes and worked six days a week.  I ate poorly (there were days when all of my meals came out of the vending machines), and I never, ever exercised.  I sat on my ass a lot.  Then, a couple of years ago, I got to the point where I could barely button the waist on my largest pair of fat pants.  I knew that I would either have to go shopping for new clothes, or lose the weight.  It seemed a lot easier to go shopping.

I went to the department stores and outlet malls.  I went to Ross, Marshalls, and TJ Maxx.  It was all very depressing.  It seemed like everything that actually fit me was just too ugly to wear.  I knew that I could go to the thrift stores and consignment shops, and that might at least be a little more fun, but I was so tired of shopping.  I was sick of trying on clothes and looking at myself in the mirror.  I knew it was time for the alternative.  I called the gym and made an appointment to talk to someone about signing up for a membership.

Today, I’m a lot healthier and a few pounds lighter.  It’s still hard for me to go out and exercise, though.  I would much rather sit on the couch in front of the TV with a bag of potato chips.  But since today was my regular day off and I didn’t have any good excuses, I went out and exercised for an hour.  Then I came home and sat on the couch in front of the TV with a bag of potato chips.  Er, I mean, with a bag of my knitting.


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Day 11/365: Quilted Berry Print and Green Blocks Patchwork Table Runner

1.11B

I loved Laura Ingalls Wilder’s Little House books.  Reading about Laura and her sister Mary sewing on their quilts is what first got me interested in quilt-making.  Of course I had no clue how to make a quilt, let alone how to start the process.  This was in the early eighties, and I lived in a traditional Filipino household in rural Hawaii.  All I knew was that I wanted to be sewing on a quilt, too.

(It would have to be a nine-patch one, though, like Mary’s.  Because at least I could figure out what nine-patch blocks were.  Laura’s quilt was called Dove in the Window, and what the hell was Dove in the Window?  Google wasn’t around when I was growing up, and even if it had been– our family wouldn’t have owned a computer.  And even if we did have a computer, my brothers would have been hogging it, and then my dad would have come along and he would have yanked out the plug and maybe even broken the whole damn thing, just to shut everyone up.)

Anyway, then I read Lois Lowry’s A Summer to Die.  I must have been about eleven or twelve at the time. (Another aside– when I think about it now, that is really heavy subject matter for a kids’ book.  I mean, a story about your fifteen-year-old sister’s final stages of life– a summer to die— Really?)  So while it was a very stressful time for everyone in the family in the book, the mother of the narrator started a patchwork quilt, using fabric from her daughters’ outgrown childhood clothing.  And the idea of that quilt stayed with me.

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I moved on to other books and other interests.  I taught myself how to crochet from a library book when I was in the seventh grade.  I went on to high school, undergrad, and then graduate school.  I got a master’s in creative writing.  I went out into the job market and landed in teaching.  Time passed.  I didn’t even recognize it, but looking back now– I was unhappy and depressed.  I wasn’t doing the things I loved.  It finally took some prodding from Sean and a move across the country for me to admit that I needed to make drastic changes.  Or else I would be dying the slow painful life of a central Florida middle school teacher bitterly counting the years to retirement.

In 2003, I went back to graduate school in a completely different discipline.  To deal with the stress of being a broke, thirty-something-year-old grad student, I learned how to knit.  I knitted and crocheted through years of three-hour-long classes, eight-hour-day seminars, multiple unpaid traineeships, a dissertation,  pre- and post-doc internships, four separate licensing exams, and finally, finally, I got to the point where I was securely established in a full-time permanent state job with benefits and a pension.  I was a long way away from the little girl who liked to read all the time and write stories and daydream about making a patchwork quilt out of old faded gingham dresses.

 

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Then it happened just a little over three months ago.  Back in September, when my colleague and I should have been watching a webinar but were reading the newspaper instead, I noticed a small ad for a local fabric shop, Picking Daisies.  They were offering a beginner’s quilting class, and the featured project was a patchwork quilt made out of blocks.  After all these years, it came at just the right time.  I was in the right place.

 

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Day 7/365: Still Knitting

1.6B

Last year, I was the subject of an assault (but not battery) by an inmate.  The incident could have been avoided if my co-worker had more common sense about working in a prison.  But she didn’t, and she made a choice that essentially set me up and put me in a situation where I was assaulted.  I’m going to save the details of that story for another time, but I mention it because yesterday that same co-worker made another mistake that led to a number of consequences, all of which could have been avoided if she’d just had more common sense.

The file drawers of our office desks have locks to them.  This particular individual left the key to the lock of her file drawer in the lock.  Then she left her desk and went somewhere else, and by the time she remembered that she’d left the key in the lock and went to get it, the key was gone.  Now, one of the cardinal rules of being an employee in a prison is that you never, ever just leave your key laying around where any inmate passing by could quickly reach over and pocket it.  I’m sure that even if you don’t work in a prison and you never had the training, you still know it’s a bad idea.

Anyway, so this woman goes around the office, looking everywhere and asking me if I’ve seen the key, because my office is positioned across from her office space and her desk.  Of course I hadn’t seen her key, but I did know that about a dozen inmates came in and out of that office space that morning, including my patients and the inmate workers (clerks and porters) who worked in our building.

She said, “Well, I do have another key that will open that lock.  Do you think I still have to report the key is missing?”

“Of course you have to report the key is missing!” I said.  “That’s policy.  And you do know that once you report a missing key, custody could recall the yard and track down all the inmates who’ve been in here, and then they’re going to do a strip search, and if they don’t find that key, they could go into those guys’ cells and tear up their houses looking for it.”

So she went and reported the missing key to the sergeant, and an investigation was initiated.  When I got back to work this morning, I saw one of the inmate clerks who has worked with me for a couple of years now.  He is an older man in his sixties, serving a life sentence and slowly dying of liver disease.

“Do you know if they found the key?” I asked.

“No,” he said.  “Last night, they rounded us up and we had to do a strip search.  Butt naked.”  He shook his head.  “I wouldn’t have taken that key.  What would I have done with it?”

I believed him.  In fact, I wondered if my co-worker may have misplaced her key somewhere else, whether she’d lost it or dropped it or put it in a forgotten place, because that was just the kind of person she was, and it seemed more likely that that little key had fallen into an obscure location rather than into an inmate’s pocket.  I tried not to think about this inmate and the others having to strip down naked for the correctional officers, the indignity of always being seen as guilty even when innocent, the way this sort of thing was all a part of being incarcerated.

I shook my head, too.  I didn’t have an answer.


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Day 6/365: Toe-Up Hand-Dyed Merino Wool Sock

1.6

The bad news is that my little winter holiday is over.  I went back to prison today.  I forgot how a ten-hour work day can be exhausting.  Sean returned to Ventura this morning; he’s flying out to Florida tomorrow and will be there with family for a week.  We won’t see each other again until next Thursday evening, when I head back to the Ventura homestead to report for jury duty on Friday the 16th.  Such is the life of having full-time state jobs that are 150 miles apart.

Tonight I’m working on this sock.  The yarn is a pretty hand-dyed merino wool.  If you click on the photo, you’ll be able to see a larger image and get a closer look at the colors.  I’ll probably knit a few rows and fall asleep.  I have to be back at work again in less than twelve hours.

 

 


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Day 5/365: First Completed Pair of Socks for 2015

Despite what Sean would have you think, those are not the feet of a homeless man on a park bench.

Despite what Sean would have you think, these are not the feet of a homeless man on a park bench.

“Go sit on that bench and put your feet up, so I can take a picture of the socks,” I told Sean.  We were at the end of the Embarcadero walking path near the Morro Bay Rock.

“How about I lay down like this,” he said, stretching out on the bench and putting his hat over his face.  “And then the people walking by will think you found some homeless guy and put socks on his feet.”

“Pull your cuffs up from your ankles, so I can get a good photo,” I said, ignoring the fact that now he did look like some guy passed out on a park bench and there were people walking by and staring.

He made some noises but obliged.  It wasn’t until after I’d snapped the photo and looked at it did I realize that now I had a picture of what looked like naked hairy legs wearing nothing but knitted handmade socks.

1.5B

You see what I mean?

“Not like that!” I said.  “Just pull your cuffs back down.  I’ll take another picture.”

He pulled the cuffs back down but remained in his homeless-man-passed-out-on-a-park-bench pose and I got a picture of this.

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Awake or passed out, who can tell?

“Just– just cross one foot over the other ankle.  Like, try to make your feet look perky, or something.  I just need to get a good picture of the socks.”  I was acutely aware that the tourists who’d been looking at the sea otters were now looking curiously at me and the camera and the homeless guy on the bench.

Despite what Sean would have you think, those are not the feet of a homeless man on a park bench.

Okay, perfect.

“Thanks for being my foot model,” I said to Sean on the walk home.

“You didn’t take a picture of me passed out on the bench,” he said.  “That would have been the best.”


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Day 3/365: Knitted Toe-Up Self-Striping Sock

Sean's feet at 8:35 AM.  Only one of them is partially cold.

Sean’s feet at 8:35 AM. Only one of them is partially cold.

Sean was up this morning before me.  By the time I got upstairs, he was ensconced in his favorite sun room chair and engrossed in some academic book about Thomas Pynchon.  The only reason he even stopped his reading to put on the socks and be my foot model was that he said his feet were cold.  And then he saw that only one sock was done.

I don’t remember when I finished the first sock.  I do know that it was well over a year ago and it took a few days, because Sean has big old size 11 feet, as opposed to my mother, who can wear shoes from the kids’ department and therefore is a lot easier to knit socks for.  I probably started the second sock shortly after I finished the first one, but then my crafter’s ADHD kicked in and I lost interest.  I forgot all about these socks, until I pulled out my basket of unfinished knitting to embark on this New Year’s resolution to complete all of my unfinished projects.

I’ll probably spend today and tomorrow on this pair.  Sean said that when he was putting on the first sock, it was a little tight around the cuff (and what with the broken right elbow, he had a hell of a time pulling it on in the first place).  I’ll finish the second sock and then go back to the first one, rip out the cuff, and do it over.  Now that I think of it, this might be a three-day project, because the cuffs need to be longer anyway.  I think I’m starting to remember why I abandoned these socks the first time around.

Sean following my direction to cross his ankles and loosen his feet for a more "casual" look.

Sean following my direction to cross his ankles and loosen his feet for a more “casual” look.


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Day 2/365 Fish Hat

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Some time in 2013, I started knitting this fish hat from this pattern.  I finished the body and just needed to add the fins and eyes.  A lot of crap was going on in my life at the time, so after I set the hat aside, I promptly forgot all about it.  2014 rolled around.  I took a quilting class in September and loved it so much that I bought a new sewing machine.  I made a bunch of quilted projects and got away from knitting.  By December, I’d completed five quilts and half a dozen holiday table runners.  It was time for a sewing break.  I went back to my knitted works-in-progress and picked up the fish hat, which Sean was calling The Seattle Sounders Hat because of its colors.

This morning, I woke early without needing the alarm clock.  I went upstairs, sat on the couch, and got to finishing that ol’ fish hat.  There was no need to cast on stitches; the fins called for picking up stitches on the body of the hat.  I’d taken today off, because yesterday was a state holiday and Monday is my regular day off anyway, so I’d have a nice long five-day weekend.  (Have I mentioned how much I love my job assignment?)  Anyway, I finished my knitting and added the final touch by sewing on the felt eyes.  After breakfast, Sean and I walked down to the Embarcadero so I could take photos.  (We would have ridden our skateboards, except his right elbow is still broken from last week when he went too fast downhill on his Christmas present skateboard.)  We took turns modeling the hat, which I really made for him.  So for now, even though he’s an L.A. Galaxy fan, he’ll be sporting Seattle Sounders colors.