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Day 27/365: A Christmas Story

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The beginning of a top-down sweater with increases for raglan sleeve shaping.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Happy New Year!” I greeted Mr. Y, a patient who I hadn’t seen since around Thanksgiving.  “How was your Christmas?”

“It was fine, it was good,” he said.  He gave me an update on his recent activities and we talked for a little bit.  He was in the 12-Step Program and participated in a bible study group.  While the 12-Step Program was facilitated by one of the psychologists in our mental health program, the bible study group was coordinated among the inmates.

“We took up a collection for Christmas,” he said.

“A collection?” I asked.  “What do you mean?”

Then he explained that last month, he and the rest of the bible study group pooled their resources including their work pay (15 to 90 cents an hour, depending on their job assignment) for a total of a few hundred dollars.  Then they went to canteen and purchased canned soups, ramen noodles, deodorant, soap, toothpaste, and other basic necessities.  They identified indigent inmates who didn’t have jobs or family support, and on Christmas day, the bible study group went out on the yard and started handing out packages to their selected recipients.

“Wow,” I said, impressed.  “That was very thoughtful of you guys.  What a kind and generous thing to do.”

“Guess what happened next,” Mr. Y said.

“The whole yard got wind of it, and everyone came looking for a handout,” I guessed.

“Yep.  We started getting all these guys—‘We heard there was free stuff.  Can I get some soup?’  And we talking guys with jobs and money on the books.”  Mr. Y shook his head.  “And then the police come over and tell us we gotta break it up, ‘cause we got too big a crowd.”

“That’s a shame,” I said, shaking my head too.  “But I guess that’s how it is.  You’re in a prison, so you’re gonna get those kinds of guys, looking to take advantage.”

“What’s that expression?”  Mr. Y took a moment to search his memory.  “That’s right.  ‘No good deed goes unpunished.’ ”


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Day 22/365: Crisis Call

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It’s usually never a good sign when a correctional officer shows up at your office with a mental health referral slip in his hand and an apologetic look on his face, just when you’re about to eat your lunch.

“Sorry to bother you,” he said.  “But I’ve got an inmate outside who I think may need to be seen.”  The C.O. then went on to explain that he noticed this particular inmate (a twenty-year-old who happened to be on my caseload) trying to leave the yard in sweats and no ducat.  The facility policy is that all inmates leaving the yard must be appropriately dressed in their state-issued blue pants and blue shirts that clearly designate their status from the rest of the staff.  Additionally, they should have a ducat or pass indicating that they are due for an appointment or some sort of work or school assignment.  This particular inmate had no paperwork to prove that he was supposed to be anywhere, and he acted lost and confused when the C.O. questioned him.

I was familiar with this kid through previous encounters.  Even though he was twenty years old, he had a history of impulsive behaviors and the emotional maturity of a nine-year-old.  Hell, even my nine-year-old nephew had better insight and judgment.

“Bring him in,” I said, putting my lunch bag away and cursing the poor timing of events.

The youngster was escorted in and left alone with me.  I got right to the point.  “What’s going on?  The C.O. told me you were trying to leave the yard and go out into the plaza.”

“Aww, I’m just tired.  Tired of being in prison.  I just want to get out.”

“So you were trying to leave?”

He didn’t answer, but everything about his demeanor said yes, that’s exactly what he’d been trying to do.  I asked him a few more questions, and he was vague with his answers.  I also noticed a few little things about his mannerisms that made me suspect he’d been using drugs, and not any that were officially prescribed to him.  My gut feeling told me that he needed to be referred to the crisis bed, officially known as the Correctional Treatment Center, which is basically the prison’s inpatient psychiatric hospital.

I explained to him that I had some concerns and would have him evaluated by somebody from the CTC.  I had him wait on the bench outside the sergeant’s office.  I let the sergeant know what was going on, and then I called the crisis screener.  She showed up in about fifteen minutes.

“What’s the crisis?  Is he saying he’s going to hurt himself?”

“No,” I said.  “He’s denying it, but I think he’s minimizing his symptoms.”  I explained that he had tried to leave the yard and seemed to have a plan to walk out of the prison.

“So?  It’s not like he would have gone anywhere.  They would have stopped him.”

“Yeah,” I said, “but he doesn’t seem to care what happens to him.  It’s like that suicide-by-cop mentality.”

She said a few more things that gave me the feeling that she didn’t trust my judgment or believe that this situation warranted an admission into the crisis bed.  But she went off to interview him, and I went back to my office.  Half an hour later, I had to go to the sergeant’s office on unrelated business and ran into her.  She was finishing up her paperwork.

“I’m having him admitted,” she said, “and I’m ordering a drug screen.  I’d be surprised if it turns out that he’s not on drugs.  But he’s not safe to go back to the yard.”

I wanted to say, “Of course!  I told you so!”  But I didn’t, even though she’d been so dismissive of me earlier.  Instead, I took comfort in the knowledge that I was right and anyway, what was most important was that this kid would be getting the help that he needed.


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Day 21/365: Back to Business

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I hadn’t been inside the prison since last week Wednesday, so when I returned to my office this morning, it was with some dread.  The thing about being gone for a week is that the work just accumulates until I get back.  There are always emails to answer, phone calls to return, and inmate requests to triage.  The inmate requests are usually placed in business envelopes and delivered to my mailbox.  Because they’ve led to bad experiences in the past, I am now averse to opening these envelopes.  Naturally, having been gone a week, I returned to find one of those business envelopes addressed to me and sitting in my mailbox.

In one of my earlier posts, I wrote about Mr. X.  He was what we call a Third-Strike Lifer.  In 1998, he’d been “struck out” under the California Three Strikes Law and sentenced to 27 years to life for possession of a controlled substance.  In 2012, the majority of voters in California voted in favor of Proposition 36, allowing the Three Strikes Law to be revised so that a life sentence can only be imposed when the new felony conviction is a serious or violent offense.  Under Prop 36, Mr. X became eligible for re-sentencing.  He had already been incarcerated for over 17 years.  The court finally reviewed his case this year, and last Friday he was released from prison.

I opened that business envelope addressed to me and discovered that it was a letter from Mr. X, sending a “note of gratitude.”  He wrote, “I hope to be able to do good by you and everyone else who has helped me along the way.”  This is an individual who was going to serve a minimum of 27 years in prison for possession of a controlled substance before he would be eligible for a suitability hearing with the parole board, if not for Prop 36.  I know a lot of people believe that there is no point to voting, but know that it can make a difference.  It did for this man.


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Day 15/365: Planning

Breakfast of champions.  Recognize the placemat?

The breakfast of champions. Recognize the placemat?

I’m up early this morning because today is going to be a long one.  I probably won’t get back to the computer until maybe fifteen, sixteen hours from now, and I wanted to make sure that I completed Day 15’s post.

Today I have to sit through eight hours of a mandatory inservice training.  My colleagues who already attended the training told me that it will be painfully boring and to bring something to keep me awake.  You know I’ll be knitting.  The other thing about these trainings is that everyone always wants to sit in the back, and if you show up late, you end up having to sit in the very front under the instructor’s nose.  I learned my lesson the first time I arrived for a training at ten minutes to eight, and the whole room was already filled.  So these days, every time we’ve got a mandatory inservice, I make sure I’m there at least half an hour early.  (Even then, I’m usually not the first person there.)  Anyway, I don’t know about you, but I have to go to the bathroom about every two minutes, so I like to sit by the door every time I’m in a classroom.

The training should be done at 1600 hours (or 4 PM), but if we’re lucky (and most likely we won’t be), the trainers will let us out a few minutes early.  I’ll get into the car and start the 150-mile drive south to the Ventura homestead, because on Friday I have to report for jury duty.  That will be another eight hours of all-day sitting around, if I don’t get called into a courtroom for jury selection.  Some people think that just because I work in a prison, I’m automatically dismissed from jury duty.  Not true.  I’ve had to go through the selection process before, and it sucked.  I thought about skipping out this time, and I even looked up “What happens if you don’t go to jury duty?” on Google.  The short answer is that you can be fined and even sentenced to jail time for contempt of court.  No, thanks.  I been inside a jail cell and a prison cell, and they ain’t pretty.


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Day 14/365: Sock

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I often tell my patients, “If you’re having an emergency, let custody know, and they’ll notify me.”  Once in a while, someone gets bad news or is feeling suicidal, and it’s important that they know they can ask for help and get it.

So today I was in between appointments, and one of the inmate clerks came by my office to tell me that a patient was requesting to see me.  The patient didn’t have an appointment for today.  His tier officer had written him a special pass to Psych Services.  I knew this particular inmate-patient; he’d come by my office for unscheduled appointments before, when he’d had some small crises.  I told the clerk to bring him in.

Mr. D arrived at my door, carrying a manila folder and a business-sized envelope.  He sat down and handed me the envelope.  “Here,” he said.  “I brought this to show you.”

The return address was an attorney’s office.  I pulled out a sheet of paper and quickly scanned the letterhead.  Oh crap, I thought.  Did this guy just get bad news?  Is this letter going to tell me that the court denied his appeal?  Am I about to deal with a shitstorm?  I braced myself and tried not to let my brain get too far ahead with planning the next intervention.

I read the letter.  In a nutshell, the attorney had checked a number of sources and was unable to find past legal documents that would have provided some important information that might be helpful to the inmate’s current appeal.

I handed the letter back to Mr. D.  “I don’t understand.  So what’s the emergency?”

“I have the documents that he needs right here.”  Mr. D held up the manila folder.  “I wanted to see if you would fax them over to his office for me.”


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Day 13/365: Toe-Up Hand-Dyed Merino Wool Sock

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Since I work four ten-hour days, every Tuesday is my Monday morning.  I’d just turned on the computer when my colleague Dr. L walked into my office.  He said, “Dr. V, you didn’t tell me on Friday that I forgot to turn my keys in.”

“What are you talking about?”  I tried to remember Friday, but it seemed like such a long time ago.

“You and I walked out together after work, remember?  And I forgot to turn my keys in.  I got home and you know by the end of the week, I’m just wiped out.  I went to bed at 8:00.  I guess I just fell into a deep sleep.  Anyway, my cell phone started buzzing around 10:00, 10:30, but I was in such a deep sleep, I didn’t pick up right away.  By the time I was able to answer the phone, whoever was calling hung up.  And then my home phone started ringing.  But like I told you, I was so tired.  I thought I’d just let the machine pick up.  But whoever was calling didn’t leave a message; they hung up.  They must have called like five times, but they didn’t leave a message.  And then, around 12:30 that night, someone was knocking at my door.  They came to my house.”

“Who came to your house?”

“Two officers.”

“Holy shit,” I said.  “I guess they really needed to have those keys.”


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Day 9/365: Putting the Pieces Together

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Remember earlier this week when I told you about the missing key? It showed up.

So today that same woman was telling a third co-worker about the incident.  She said, “Usually, when I’m not using the key, I put it in here.”  She opened her desk drawer to show where she usually kept the key (which, again, tells you just how much common sense she has about working in a prison).  Well, lo and behold. There was the key.  Whoever took it the first time had brought it back.

I’d doubted before that any inmate stole the key, and now I was definitely sure that the culprit hadn’t been one of the inmates.  I was sitting at my desk when this all played out, and she turned to me with her mouth open.

“You know what happened,” I told her.  “Someone was teaching you a lesson.”  I’d heard of this sort of thing happening before.  People would leave their keys or alarms just laying around on a desk unattended, and then someone else would notice and take it or hide it, just to make a point.

“The inmates were strip searched for that,” I said.

By this time she’d recovered from her surprise and was already pushing the desk drawer closed.  “Oh well.”  She shrugged.  “At least now I don’t have to write that memo reporting a missing key.”


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Day 8/365: On a Happier Note

 

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I’d just started reading through the morning’s collection of emails when my office phone rang.  It was one of my colleagues, a social worker who had some information to pass on.

“Your patient Mr. X spoke with his attorney yesterday and found out he’s been resentenced by the court.  Looks like he’ll be going home in about five days.  Just wanted to give you a heads up.”

I knew that Mr. X was a third-strike lifer who qualified for resentencing after California passed Prop 36 a couple years ago.  I couldn’t remember the circumstances of his case, though.  I pulled up his file and refreshed my memory.  According to reports, the officers on patrol saw him sitting on a curb with his head slumped down, so they stopped to “check on his welfare” and found .08 net grams of cocaine and a glass pipe in his possession.  It was July of 1997.  He was arrested, hauled off to county jail, and charged with possession of a controlled substance.  He’d had a long history of theft-related offenses and already served five previous terms.  Apparently, he was deemed a danger to society after this last arrest.  The court sentenced him to 27 years to life.  I am not exaggerating.  That is a fact.  He started the state prison term in April of 1998, and today is January 8, 2015.  Keep in mind, too, that he’d been locked up since July of 1997, when he first went to county jail.

I picked up the phone and called Mr. X’s tier officer, who knew me and had no problem with my request that he locate Mr. X, write him a special pass, and send him over to Psych Services to see me.

Mr. X showed up within minutes.  We went over some paperwork and I had him sign some forms, including a release of information authorizing the state to provide his health care information to county mental health for continuity of care after his release into the community.  When we were done, I sat back and said, “Eighteen years is a long time to be in prison for getting caught slumped over on a curb with drugs in your pocket.”

“Aw, that’s not what really happened,” he said.  “That’s what they put in the report.”

“So what really happened?” I said.  “How’d you get arrested in the first place?”

“I was jaywalking,” he said.  “And then when I saw them, I tried to backtrack, but it was too late.  They got me.”


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Day 7/365: Still Knitting

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Last year, I was the subject of an assault (but not battery) by an inmate.  The incident could have been avoided if my co-worker had more common sense about working in a prison.  But she didn’t, and she made a choice that essentially set me up and put me in a situation where I was assaulted.  I’m going to save the details of that story for another time, but I mention it because yesterday that same co-worker made another mistake that led to a number of consequences, all of which could have been avoided if she’d just had more common sense.

The file drawers of our office desks have locks to them.  This particular individual left the key to the lock of her file drawer in the lock.  Then she left her desk and went somewhere else, and by the time she remembered that she’d left the key in the lock and went to get it, the key was gone.  Now, one of the cardinal rules of being an employee in a prison is that you never, ever just leave your key laying around where any inmate passing by could quickly reach over and pocket it.  I’m sure that even if you don’t work in a prison and you never had the training, you still know it’s a bad idea.

Anyway, so this woman goes around the office, looking everywhere and asking me if I’ve seen the key, because my office is positioned across from her office space and her desk.  Of course I hadn’t seen her key, but I did know that about a dozen inmates came in and out of that office space that morning, including my patients and the inmate workers (clerks and porters) who worked in our building.

She said, “Well, I do have another key that will open that lock.  Do you think I still have to report the key is missing?”

“Of course you have to report the key is missing!” I said.  “That’s policy.  And you do know that once you report a missing key, custody could recall the yard and track down all the inmates who’ve been in here, and then they’re going to do a strip search, and if they don’t find that key, they could go into those guys’ cells and tear up their houses looking for it.”

So she went and reported the missing key to the sergeant, and an investigation was initiated.  When I got back to work this morning, I saw one of the inmate clerks who has worked with me for a couple of years now.  He is an older man in his sixties, serving a life sentence and slowly dying of liver disease.

“Do you know if they found the key?” I asked.

“No,” he said.  “Last night, they rounded us up and we had to do a strip search.  Butt naked.”  He shook his head.  “I wouldn’t have taken that key.  What would I have done with it?”

I believed him.  In fact, I wondered if my co-worker may have misplaced her key somewhere else, whether she’d lost it or dropped it or put it in a forgotten place, because that was just the kind of person she was, and it seemed more likely that that little key had fallen into an obscure location rather than into an inmate’s pocket.  I tried not to think about this inmate and the others having to strip down naked for the correctional officers, the indignity of always being seen as guilty even when innocent, the way this sort of thing was all a part of being incarcerated.

I shook my head, too.  I didn’t have an answer.